Dilemma!!!

Yesterday I faced a dilemma in the supermarket.

Initially I knew what I wanted and where to get it so I grabbed the first tomatoes I saw with little thought as to which ones they were since I trusted City Market's tomato selection. THEN, I realized that there were, in fact, two sections of tomatoes: conventional and organic. I had picked up the conventional ones. Whoops, I thought, of courrrrse I want the organic ones. But here is where the dilemma lies. As I read the label closer I noticed the organic ones were from Mexico and the conventional ones were from Maine. AHHHH! Either choice poses risks to the environment, my health, and the health of the farmers. However, after making a quick pros and cons list in my head I went with the conventional ones and thought that maybe this farm was one of those "basically organic" ones that doesn't want to get certified but follows organic practices? I don't know the whole story of the Maine tomatoes except that they are local and may or may not have had pesticides. Just because they are not labeled organic does not automatically mean that pesticides were used. However, I know for sure that those organic tomatoes from Mexico used a whole lot of gas to get to Vermont. I guess it was a lose-lose situation... I'll never really know.

Paying for my tomatoes the cashier asked "are these organic?" I felt totally embarrassed saying "no.." and kind of looked away and wished I could explain to him my dilemma and urge him to not judge me for buying what may be pesticide-ridden tomatoes. But why do I care so much what this random cashier thinks?? This just revealed how much I feel my food choices say about me...